What If...

I had this thought a while back and it intrigued me. What if we stayed with our first loves? Like the first person we actually loved was the person you spent the rest of your life with. That might lead to a few problems, but it's an interesting thought, isn't it? The first person you love might not love you. Would that mean that since you stay with them, they stay with you until they love you and then it's all fine and dandy? And you better hope that the first person you fall in love with is the one you're supposed to be with, otherwise you're screwed. Just a thought I thought I'd share :)

Much love and be free,

Avery

Self Image and My Personal Struggle

Everyone has issues with themselves. I don't care who you are, there is always something you wouldn't mind changing. Whether it's part of your personality or something about your body. I blame the media. The media makes everyone feel like they aren't perfect just because they aren't exactly like the image that they show us. Whether through billboards, magazines, tv shows, movies, whatever. I personally think this is horrible. Everyone is beautiful in their own way, who do they think they are to say we aren't?

I admit, I'm hard on myself. Often. I wish I could say I'm one of those people who doesn't give a shit about her weight or how she looks, but the fact is, I'm not. But the thing I'm hardest on is a certain thing in my past. I just can't seem to let go, no matter how hard I try. I hit a low point in this journey a few nights ago with this vice I can't shake. I could barely believe that the thoughts crossing my mind were actually coming from me. But I wasn't alone. One of my best friends was there to help me. Well, he wasn't actually there, he was hours away at college, but that didn't stop him from helping me. He stayed up with me for a long time, consoling me and reassuring me that I could get through this. With his and my other friends' help, I know I can over come this.

Much love and be free,

Avery